I thought this man was going to be a big part of my life. Feeling grew quickly. Even if we always fought over the same thing. Everything was good for a few weeks. We didn’t fight at all. Until I saw he went on a date with another girl. And even posted about it. He never posted about me. Yeah he did tell me maybe a week after he went out with her. But he didn’t continue seeing her because he had strong feelings for me. I just always screw things up. I don’t think I’m allowed to be happy. He thinks I’m sleeping with someone else. I could never do that to anyone. Together or not. The last person I slept with besides him was in September. And I didn’t even meet this guy until Halloween.