No problem, i appreciate the reply. It feels so good to know that other people like me are out there and do realize the deeper issue going on. We both have had experiences with pharmaceuticals rather for it's purpose or for experimentation purposes . The crazy thing most people(under the influence) can't wrap their heads around what's happening to them. Slowly but surely becoming dope heads and leaving the ones who love them to see them throw portions(if not their entire) of their life away due to substance abuse. The time we have on this earth is borrowed. We might as well use it to become productive, But with pill companies slowly not caring about lives and making money from them. I liked the part where you said instead of "ouch" it becomes "who cares". This is the reality of the "war on drugs" that we live in and not only us but our loved ones are a part of as well. Sorry to hear about your leg, it sounds like you have definitely been through some issues, but i can tell from reading it now your strong. Each day we only get better and im as proud of you as i am proud of myself.