Oh, my dear. We all sometimes go there - life has a lot and sometimes we just concentrate on something so deep that we truly forget of the world around us. The same time I think the period you are going through it is extremely important so please do not underestimate it. I believe everything in life is like a circle - growth-prosper-going down-the very down -growth... I think you are just in the beginning of the next cycle so just be in the process%) leave some time for you to live with this "a sort of numbness" and when the time is right it will pass opening new horizons for you. And who knows maybe it will be not a Cali but the other girl%)) Many blessings to you, a lovely soul!