Man I'm so sorry about your experience. We all sometimes do the wrong thing when it comes to relationships, but it is best that you are learning from the experience. Keep your chin up and keep working on yourself, your honesty, and your acceptance of yourself. The higher powers will reward you if you grow from this. I promise. I went through something like this recently and have come out of it shining brighter than ever before, and I am constantly rewarded in life now.