Introduction

( This is me, standing outside our hotel room looking at the Taal Lake, color graded in Lightroom and birds were added using PicsArt for mood. )

Hello guys! Raymund Bumagat here. Today marked my 8th day here in Steemit and all I can say is that my 1st week is so challenging yet so fun!

Ever since I started here, I am always thinking about telling stories more on every photographs that I took, how am I be able to make sure that my audience (you) will be able to feel what I feel while you read my posts like "Is the photo, angle, tone, and caption appropriate to tell the right mood?"

And for the nth time, again I would like to say thank you for reading and appreciating my works. It means so much to me.

Last week, I told you my story about myself and how I get started with photography.

Today, I would like to tell you a story about myself and other side of me, and I hope you will be able to like this as well. . .

The other side of me

As some of you know, I am photographer based in Laguna Philippines and an Instagram Boyfriend who has many shameless self portraits smiling or posing a planned candid shot. Yep that's me haha!

( This was taken by my girlfriend, she's still learning my camera when she took this, so yea, blurred. )

But this time, I want to share you guys the other side of me, the side that tells that even we people are smiling, sometimes we do have problems too, and it is okay.

If you are not into reading this kind of story, it is okay to me, just skip this post for now and I apologize because this can be a cheesy or a dramatic blog/story.

The Story. . .

If you were able to read my story linked above, I also mentioned that I am a Graduate of BS Information Technology. I graduated last June 2015 ( I was declared graduate with 0 units left on a Summer Term ).

After a Month, I started to look for jobs online, submitted my resume here and there. There are many positions available and I am just passing my resume to the position that I believe I will be able to use my educational background.

I applied to a well known IT company worldwide ( IBM ), my very 1st application in my life. After I got home from an interview ( which is if I will rate is a worst interview ) they already asked me to go and submit the files needed so I can go back to them for a Job Offer.

I thought that applying on companies that you want is very easy so guess what? I denied their offer.

Why?

I will tell you later on....

As far as I can remember, I already applied to 14 companies and believe it or not, none of them hired me.

I felt so stupid, useless and depressed. . .

Now to cut the long story short, I went back to the 1st company that offered me a Job, and luckily, they still gave me a chance and hired me...

So, why did I refused the Job Offer before?

Because the Job that they are offering to me is a Technical Support Specialist position. It is like you are in a call center environment but you are talking to an employee assisting them with IT related stuffs.

As most of you know, working on call center, support field or any related jobs requires a shifting schedule. My body clock was ruined and I am working on holidays. I cannot even join and meet my friends anymore.

I was not able to use my educational background in programming, networking and etc. since I am just supporting them through calls/email and I need to rely on the given document containing the steps on how we can resolve their concerns.

As time goes by, I started not to feel happy anymore in terms of work. I am doing the same thing over and over again answering calls... emails...ticket creation.... and repeat. ( no offense to the people who loves working in this kind of environment, it is just that this is something that I don't see myself growing. )

While I am still in IBM, I tried to apply to the companies that I want to work and for the position that I like where I can use my educational background. Unfortunately, none of them hired me.

One company didn't even bother to interview me once they noticed that I am not fresh grad anymore.

I also tried to apply in another company, they handed me an exam in programming, and guess what? I cannot even remember anything about it.

I felt again the frustration and the depression that I felt 1.5 years ago when I am still looking for a job. Why is it that it is so hard to get the job that I want?!

Finally I decided to resign, I know that if I stayed there longer, the more that I will forget everything that I have learned during college days and I need to have time to study, refresh everything that I can so I can be prepared for the next interview.

I stayed there for 2 years. There are many things that I have learned there like dealing with people, handling stress and multi - tasking.

I don't regret being there, I experienced there my 1st salary, I really enjoy the people and heard their stories, the fact that you will not take your job at home and so on.

But. .

I have lots of what - ifs in my head.

-What if I am working as a programmer, a software QA, a Network Admin?
-What if I my work does not require shifting schedule? Maybe I didn't miss the chance to bond with my friends.
-What if I was able to build my career as an IT professional and not worked as a support agent? Maybe I am not depressed as what I feel right now.

Be Positive!

The title of this blog is a quote that my co worker in IBM said.

"You start to lose potential once you start believing in your nightmares rather than your dreams. - Julius Robin Murallon"

This one knocked me and all the negative things inside my head. This is some thing that you want to hear from someone especially if you are depressed.

I uploaded this photo of me in my Instagram and captioned that quote the day I he said it. I believe that this is the photo that I have that matches the mood of the quote.

Up until now, I am still looking for work, still submitting resumés here and there and still refreshing everything that I can.

I already applied and had interviews for 3 companies already with unfortunate results. But I need to stay strong, hang on and don't give up just like this pulley.

( This a photo of a pulley hanging in the edge of a building where my girlfriend is staying. I took this during golden hour. )

I really hope that I can find a job soon. I'll admit, I still feel depressed, lost and frustrated every single day.

Thanks to the art of photography and telling stories, I somehow express myself and what I feel.

Maybe some of you has the same problem as mine, maybe you have a different one. We all do have.

But every time that we have problems, let's not forget to look up, smile, be positive and pray.

( I am trying to capture and make a cross using those buildings with this shot lol. )

Thank you!

That's it for me today guys! I hope that you liked the story behind the other side of me and my worries in life. I know that this one is a dramatic post but if you're reading this, I would like to thank you for reading and listening. It means a lot.

So! Hit that up-vote button, follow me if you haven't yet, and see you guys in the next posts!