I don't know whether this was the wrong or the right thing to read right now as I still have this kind of low level of fear of getting old and dying before I ever get anywhere, and my computer just crashed (again) doing exactly the thing that I blew a lot of money on it for (making me once more deeply regret the decision to get the "better" linux box over the "underpowered overpriced" Mac) and destroyed my Blender file so completely and utterly that everything in it is just gone. Fortunately I had a backup from yesterday so only have yesterday and today's work to redo but I've already lost literal years constantly redoing things and I'm so over it I don't even know where to start describing it.
And so I had a meltdown at J over Telegram before getting back into it because there is literally nothing else that can be done except stop and that is absolutely unacceptable for any reason whatsoever.
I'm still angry! XD
Which is why I was thinking that maybe it was the wrong thing to read as it made me angrier but it was also the right thing to read because it reminds me that even the perfect looking people struggle sometimes.
At least one of us is making progress and that's a good thing :)
Am I perfect looking? Hahaha
If you ever want to talk I’m here
I think that fear of getting old and dying can be good motivation for a while but as the fear unwinds we need to learn how to use inspiration as motivation. It’s like a gradual change from fossil fuel to clean energy in our soul haha
You have everything so well in hand now :)
The fear of dying first is really residual now, I'm kind of too old to care and have more important things to think about XD
You kick ass always every time x10