Great writing. You come across honest and genuine. Loved reading THE WHOLE THING. LOL, I can see why you snap back at those who obviously haven't. I can also tell you're reading the comments, so that too shows conviction, good job.

One of the other comments mentioned something I thought of as well. You need some 'skin-in-the-game' amigo. You're feeling ridden hard with no upside, but your good nature wants to help the owner out. I feel a partnership is more in order for you to get there, nothing huge to make him feel cut out or gouged, but perhaps a 25% stake would perk your focus up on the daily grind. You'll get up knowing you're building something for both of you instead of just for him.

2nd...you need a big dose of something to change your perception of life. Happened to me, 5 years ago. I'll pm you later and we can chat :)

Keep smiling amigo...you ain't dead yet!