Soaking up the sun and getting my head right

I love sitting in the sun whilst I write, there is something about it that I find so energising. The sun hasn't been around these parts that much of late, mostly it has been peeking out from behind the clouds for moments, before disappearing again.

We have also hit that time of the year where it gets really cold just as the sun is going down. I mean chill you to the bone kind of cold.

I guess you get used to it, but at the moment, with the medication I'm on for my heart and the after effects of the heart attack, I just seem to feel the cold more these days. For that matter I think I feel any change in temperature more these days.

Hopefully this new found sensitivity to the changes in the weather don't last as I'm thinking they might put a dampener on any future holiday plans that I might make.

I've been feeling kind of all over the place of late, and there isn't a hell of a lot that I can do about my circumstances at the moment. Mostly I have just been trying to hold onto my sanity as best I can.
It is find of sad though because when I am around people I just want to be alone and then when I am alone I feel anxious and start to catastrophise.

Last night I was home alone and settled in for a quiet night of netflix, well that was all well and good till I woke up in the middle of the night feeling sick, probably due to my meds, That was were I freaked because I had to deal with it all by myself without access to anyone to help. I felt so alone and when I was able to settle a little all I could think of was how exposed I was if something happened to me, I'd have no hope of getting help. Freaked me out is all. I did manage to fall back asleep finally, but now today just feels like a wasted day because I am so tired.

So here I find myself sitting in the sun, trying to get my head right and basically venting on steemit.
What does everyone else do when they need to try and find themselves?, what do you do when you need to find that confidence to keep on going on with your day?

I guess I will just have to soak up the sun for a little while longer and then hopefully just start putting one foot in front of the other.