There are always pain that always feels like they will always be felt for a lifetime but the truth is that we only remember those pains and misfortunes to appreciate God's faithfullness as His children.
@barncat, if i tell you that i know how it feels, it will be a lie BUT if what you went through still feels 'evergreen' after many years, then it is you making it evergreen. You remember the Israelites? for everytime they felt a threat in their lives they remembered Egypt. It is clear that for 40years and over, Egypt was evergreen in their mind even after they made the 'Promised Land'.
Of course, for we know that all things work together for good...Your good days are yet ahead