Many pledges, promises and a lot of pain.....and got nothing except a photo hidden between my clothes, spying on Facebook page and get a glimpse

Many pledges, promises and a lot of pain.....and got nothing except a photo hidden between my clothes, spying on Facebook page and get a glimpse to my phone and waiting for her number to appear on my phone.... I will regret to every second which i wasted on hesitation, fear to contact with you and the results are devastating to my life when i lost you forever