The rare moment when i wanted to cry but could not 😭😭 and ultimately ended smiling ☺️☺️

Today my friend said he hooked a girl for a date, the girl initially hesitant ultimately agreed to go with him. My friend had only one thing in mind and that he wanted to fuck that girl. The date went on and they decided to agree to meet at a restaurant and after that, he they had finished their dinner decided to seek a place where he could talk to her in private. My friend took her to a place he knew where nobody came, it was a garden of a renowned hospital, in the night where there was no one he tried to kiss her and hold her breasts but she resisted finally he decided to let her go and told her think again if you want us to be together then we ought to share everything including your body at least let me kiss you. The girl denied straight away few days later they again somehow made a plan to meet each other and the girl agreed to kiss him, i was so carried away by the narrative of the story that i was indulged in it, my friend said to me on the day of his kiss night that when we left office she left for home, whereas i was waiting for her to meet me, she said your phone was busy so i left, he said you ought to come otherwise i will not meet you she did returned and picked the guy both of them searched for hideout where they could kiss together. The way she kissed my friend knew that she had no experience of kissing, she tried to put her arms in his shirt and slowly my friend grabbed her breasts beneath her t-shirt and pushed them inside her bra, everything was going as planned and suddenly they saw the police van approaching there way. They hurriedly dressed themselves and then he dropped her home. Later on in the night the girl asked my friend that if he loved her and he said yes, she then asked that will you marry me and he said no and then she started crying to which he explained that as such you are 22 yrs of age me 28 and i have no plans to marry and you are planning for a wedding that your parents are planning for you after six months. He convinced her that we could keep this thing lifelong i am your outside life your husband and your children and everything that is there but you can come to me anytime whenever you want but for the six months lets make it memorable for you. She cried and lamented about being a cheat and all that at the end gave up and agreed to have long term sexual relationship with her, when he inquired about her previous relationships she said that she had no boyfriend and she had no sexual intercourse with anyone and that she sweared to him that she was a virgin, she then inquired that how many girls you have had relationships with, he carefully dodged that question. Now i live with this guy who convinced a virgin to fuck him in 4 days making her deeply fall in love with him and also cleared her doubts of where this relationship was headed and this fucking guy elaborates a picture so vivid of the girls beauty to his roommate which is me, i am 26 and still a virgin by choice. I just wanted to cry but when i analysed the situation i realized that i am over reacting or sympathizing with the girl.
Is right sleeping before and after wedding >>>> She has no idea what she is agreeing to he will also ask her for threesome and well ... whatever the girl is innocent and so is the devil ?? I felt that being a good men and doing your work might land your wife in someone's bed. People who are charming and sharp have a way with girls that's what i feel. Its and oversimplification and generalization but true in some sense. I wanted to cry that i had not met such a young and innocent girl and who never gave herself but her marriage is making her go crazy, i am also jealous of my friends possession and his attitude shift after acquiring her fucking someone does not make you winner or loser or subordinate for that matter.
Whatever are my feelings i just wanted to share with my friends. Anger and jealousy and disappointment were the key reasons i am writing this i wanted to accept that i am jealous, angry and disappointed and that i want my situation to change. Acceptance of this gives great relief and thanks to the steem platform for allowing this. This analysis that i was feeling bad because my friend is going to fuck a virgin at his disposal and his terms was making me feel nervous and which i admit, i am looking at my own scorecard which stands at nil 0, at the same time i realized all the efforts he made to get her and all the opportunity he seized to make her fall in love with him make me laugh at my own inactions