I can relate. I have the same sort of social anxiety. I feel like most times I can hang with the best of them. But sometimes its fucking awkward to have to interact with people on a junior high level even tho we're all adults. Its exhausting and unenjoyable to be around fakes and pretend to be normal. But most of the time it ends up being not nearly as bad as you pictured it would. And you did it for your daughter so that makes you a wonderful Mom. Not sure if I made sense just letting you know Melody, your not alone!