It's sometimes really important and value to take a step back and look at life for what it is. Losing someone close to you can change you entirely and make you more appreciative of the little things in life. Hopefully, after these funerals you are able to see past petty things like politics, materials, work - and reflect on what truly makes you happy. This has happened for me, and a good idea is to write a letter to your future self. Look at what you want to have accomplished in your lifetime. Don't leave any lost friend or family member behind. I have been there.