thanks for that story telling. It's interesting to see how that can affect people. But never take yourself too seriously ! I like comparing it to sports and more precisely running that I often do: when you manage to lower your heart rate, you manage to run more efficiently; even if it's a bit "unnatural" linked with how stressful you can feel, the best champions have that technique; and here we're only talking about "hometown fame"; come on that's not like you were on top of the charts ! I always want more, so I guess I'm never satisfied and dissatisfaction is my main engine. That's for my story. Are you a musician or a DAW type of producer ? I'm experimenting a lot with DAWs right now to find my own style, what we call "musical footprint", something that would make people think about me when they hear it; but I'm still experimenting. Using LMMS and FLstudio, Audacity; maybe you know them.