So glad I read this, it's like looking in a mirror!
I've experienced a couple too many tragedies throughout my life; I pretended I was ok after the first one; I was not ok and became very ill for a very long time.
Then healing took place doing all the stuff you talk about here.
I really wanted to do this writing prompt in time but ran out of precious time. Determined to write a belated piece on this topic though! Thank you for this, where do you find the time!