MY DILEMMA

Why me? Why me of all girls? What did i do deserve this? Why should it me? I just don't understand and am always wondering about it. Why should it me? Why am his only punching bag? Why not any other girl? Been wondering about it yet I don't have an answer right now

He was all i had. The one that brought me back to life, the one that put a smile on my face but it was all fake and i hadn't realised it. But then what should i have done even if i knew? He he was all i desired and nothing else. He was my one and only. I wish it was the same for him.

I have always asked myself why it was me he choose to toy with. Was i the easier one? Or was it a challenge? A change? I don't knoq and i can't ask him to explain, we don't talk anymore. And even if we did, i would not dare to ask him.

Call me whatever you want but falling in love with him isn't my fault. Its his only. If he hadn't approched, all this wouldn't have happened and I wouldn't be feeling this way.

I have a dilemma, a puzzle that I need to solve but i don't know what to do about it. What shall i do? Please do tell me. Shall i beg him to take me back? Shall i throw myself at him? What if he finds me.me lacking again, do I continue to persist? Will he take me back if I won't give up on him?

I think i fell in love with the wrong guy, yet i can't get him out of my mind. I fell so needy and greedy. I want him to myself but it is not the same for him. He doesn't desire me like i do him, he looks down on me which makes me fell cheap and i don't to feel like it again.

Why me? It always come to that. I had tried hard to be invisible but, he found me. Made me who i am now, shaped me, made me trust him to be put to pieces by him again. I believed him. He was my white knight in shining armour, the one and only to rescue me from my past but he left bigger scars than there was.
The puzzle, the dilemma, self doubts are what remains with me. They reign deep inside my heart, i am there queen and they, my escorts. I can't look people in their eyes because all they see is the foolish girl who was tricked by a guy.

I shouldn't feel this way but i do. I shouldn't loath him but i do. He the cause of my complex and the only one who knows me inside and out. The one that i thought my embarassing moments, the one i showed my vulnerabilty, yet his the one who took advantage of me.

I wish I was still invisible. I wish he could find me suitable for him. I wish he could return my love. I wish we could be together but, i know well that i am having uselesa dreams.

Please do forgive for rambling. I may have bored but, it was not intentional. I was baring my heart out for you because its too hard to keep all this inside me. I just wanted some relief for my heart.

Well, most of you are thinking that am weak but to be frank, am not. What happened to me shaped me to be who I am now. I am beautiful, strong and capable of taking care of myself. I may be vurnelable but I won't allow anyone to take advantage of me again. I now know who I am.

I remember my friend telling me that you don't cry for what's not yours. And i know he wasn't meant for me. Maybe my prince charming is on the way and he will come at the right moment. !( I won't cry anymore for a guy who doesn't value me. I may be lacking, but am of a great value. and the same applies to those who feel like i did.

We have great value and no one should try to destroy us because we are weak.
I won't cry anymore for a guy who doesn't value me. I may be lacking, but am of a great value. and the same applies to those who feel like i did.

We have great value and no one should try to destroy us because we are weak.