My Journey and Realizations from this SOCIETY

- How connected are people?
One year ago, I had a glimpse of the ultimate truth which is love, wisdom and knowledge. Since then I had been actively raising up my consciousness because everything is about the consciousness. At that time I started being a vegetarian and a vegan, taking cold showers according to the Wim Hof Method, fasting and meditation, which are scientifically proven to enhance health, consciousness, mental clarity and well being in general, according to people's shared experiences as well. I consistently went on for nine months, once my mind was so clear to a point that I could "catch" my subconscious thoughts that would pop out, believe it or not for people who are new to these things.
Those actions were in maintenance until I started GOING TO SCHOOL. I had been off school for nine months and I had the time to fix my personal issues like addictions to masturbation, and smoking marijuana and cigarettes. After going to school I realized that everyone is separated and NO ONE was caring others except for some school associations who are trying to help out students. This phenomenon is NORMAL in this society. NEGATIVITY IS NORMAL IN OUR SOCIETY, AND YET NO ONE WANTS TO BE NEGATIVE, AND YET MAJORITY OF HUMANS ARE NOT DOING ANY ACTIONS TO CHANGE THEIR SURROUNDINGS BUT DECIDE TO NOT CARE AND BE IGNORANT. That is why this negative energy is going on cycles in the society.
After returning to school for one semester, my addictions which are not completely fixed started to arise. They are distracting and draining my energy, and at the same time I had to deal with the SCHEDULED work and stress from school. I admit that I have my own issues but what I am trying to express is that humans rely on each other to survive and live but humanity is getting more and more separated simply because of social class and comparison etc... concepts people are attached to which separate each other and spreads NEGATIVITY that NO ONE wants to feel.
You can say that I am mentally weak because I am letting things affect me and I am even letting myself to affect myself negatively. But if you are looking down on me or judging me, you are judging yourself, the part of yourself from the past that MUST be there to be developed to this point. EVERYONE was weak. It was the SEED of life, which needs nutrients to grow to be stronger in a POSITIVE condition referring to LIFE itself. At the end of the day, no matter one is a white male or a black flower, it is a LIFE. We are all the same in essence, which needs the same things to thrive. There is one simple truth: When there are more people cooperating, the more power there is. This is undeniable. It is simply an accumulation of energy. IT IS UNITY, just like an army, but the army is a contradiction to itself since it is a unity destroying another unity. It is oppositions, comparisons and against life itself.
Imagine humanity is uniting and working together like an army, we can create a heaven for ourselves, instead of a hell.