Communication is so Ultimately Key

I had a sudden and rather sizable self-realization today:

Other people (namely my fiancé [now husband]) feel the need to censor their word choice around me when conversational atmosphere turns heated, due to my intensely felt sensitivity.

I have felt the same way as a young girl about my mother in a frenzied, or worse; concerned state. And, though I see this similarity, it is also a concurrence among the general public that one does not wish for an oppositioned speaker to exhibit these tendencies, despite our personally felt stricken-ness or apprehensions.

I do not want this, though it has been my nature to fester feelings of dreaded guilt — an unfortunate symptom of my childhood rearing: Communication is so ultimately key.

But the first step is proper communication with the self. If one can trace their feelings, and replace them with compassionate logic one is much more inclined to vocalize deeply ingrained inhibitions.

And in the case of my husband and myself, ultimately understand each other's reactions and reasoning — a much more compassionate and open perspective.