This helps me understand you even just a little bit more. I appreciate your vulnerability very much, there is a lot here that I did not know about you, and I just want to take a second to encourage you to keep sharing your story. I struggle with mental illness too, as you know. A lot of trauma from childhood and further, which I am only just now learning to process. Finally seeing a counselor and seeking healthy ways to process all that I have seen. I believe in you, dude!!