If you want to realize your dreams, you have to want and need them as much as you want and need to breathe.’

This is it. Thanks you so much for the story and lesson. For years I have been refusing to do exactly what those who have left had to do. Because I found it offensive/insulting/time-consuming/expensive, all the paperwork our government made purposefuly complicated to avoid massive migration, I procrastinated on getting them. That's one of the reasons I am still bitching and moaning in Venezuela while my friends are rebuilding their lives in different countries.
What I considered humilation was the price to pay. They were willing to pay it, I was not. They also paid the price of detachment/uprootedness and got rid of everything that kept them in place. For them it was a matter of life or death. Deep down I am wishing for a different outcome, deep down I still feel i can live without leaving.
It's a hard realization, but one I needed to confront.
Thanks again.