The Wait .... | Heavenly’s Diary✨

20/04/‘18
Dear Steemians.

The process can be really tough sometimes. In fact it can be damn frustrating! Am I doing the right thing? I’ve got SO many ideas, SO many things I want to say but I often I don’t know how to say them, how to bring them across...

BITTER-SWEET MOMENTS✨

I love what I do but it gets to a point where you want to see things happening already. Like God, you can send your rain now ☔️ I’m ready! I don’t expect everything to fully manifest already but it would be great to see the little things fall into place already, you know?! However at the same time I trust in His perfect timing, I trust in His plan. I’m just impatient. I want it to happen NOW! But it doesn’t work that way👀.

Don’t get me wrong, there’s things that I can already see that have fallen into place but now I’d just like to see growth in what I’m doing, in what I’m investing my time and faith in. It’s so demotivating when you’ve spend hours on editing and putting together a BOMB ASS video for YouTube, you upload it expecting to see more than your average views only to find it reaching a low 48 views... And that’s what I’ve been averaging on lately - below 100 views which is really frustrating at times, I’m not going to lie. It’s especially frustrating when your first ever video on YouTube has already reached 5000 views. Why can’t it carry on that way?

Oh! And don’t get me started on the comparing game! Then you start comparing yourself to the recent YouTube stars and you’re just like “aaagghh🙄😣, do I even have what it takes?”

THE TOUGH REALISTIC REALITY✨

I have to keep reminding myself, “Heavenly, they also started off somewhere & through consistentcy got themselves to the top.” 👆🏼

I know it’s a process, I know I’m going to have to endure “The Wait” - it just gets tough sometimes, that’s all. You see nothing happening but you’ve got to trust the vision and keep going. That takes strength and a whole lot of faith. And luckily I’m not doing this alone, my Father is alongside me and that’s what gives me all this CRAZY faith. It’s Him. It’s always been Him. And will always be Him❤️.

It’s been a year and a bit that I’ve been on YouTube now. I’ve only been taking it seriously for the last few months because I’ve had the time to seriously invest into it. So at the same time I know I need to give myself a break. In all reality it’s only been a few months, a person doesn’t grow overnight unless you go viral.

DON’T GIVE UP THE WALK✨

I know I may look stupid to some now but I know one day I’ll be able to testify of how miraculously God brought me through. And what a great day that will be! I can’t wait to inspire others by my story. So now I’ve got to be consistent with what I believe to be true - MY VISION.

WORK WORK WORK WORK WORK WORK

Who else heard Rihanna’s voice in their head reading that? Or should I say singing that?😂

But yes CONSISTENCY is key 🔑! It’s everything! Without consistency, you might aswell quit now. Despite today’s rant, I really do believe this is my path and I’m really excited about it and I’m so happy I get to do this! Sometimes you just need to let it all out, you know. So thanks, I feel better now😆.

I’m READY for another day! And guess what?! It’s FRIDAY yaaaaayyyy 🎉