Alcohol - Good slaves enjoy drinking

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use Alcohol as a way to try and forget self, to lose myself, to disappear for a moment and lose my fears, anxieties, and stress.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that for me to use alcohol to suppress what I am experiencing within myself, is me actually telling myself that what I am experiencing and facing within myself and my world, that I am not capable of handling it, of taking self-responsibility, and so by confirming this belief through the act of drinking, I am actually building a mountain in front of me that only grow, until I feel I give up and lose myself completely as the spirit/entity of alcohol and do not exist anymore.

I forgive myself that I have not seen and realized that alcohol is a substance/drug endorsed by the system as the system of greed and money needs a drug that can be legally used and abused by the slaves of the system to suppress the honesty they have of and about the system, as to accept the system and rather destroy themselves.

I forgive myself that I have Not questioned the legality of alcohol and sale of alcohol as being so easy and accessible by all, when drugs that are actually cures are suppressed, yet alcohol is allowed and manufactured and distributed all over the world, and widely available even in poverty-stricken areas, where there isn't even fresh water available, so why is this? it reveals an obvious action by the system of control, to have that control in all areas of life to maintain control, thus I see and realize through MY personal participation in alcohol, I am saying, YES this is valid, this system has a good point and I support it, therefore I will drink and destroy myself and never question why the very system as the money system I live in is designed in a way to never educate the human on basic human functionalities as thoughts, feelings, and emotions, and yet uses everything i its power to control the thoughts, feelings and emotions of people, and even implant them and design them, which leads to stress, anxiety and fear which I am trying to supress through alcohol, and thus I see I must start questioning myself and thus equally the system. As within so without.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to enjoy not being myself, being the problems I face, may it be a relationship, work, family and most of all as all ways money and how my life has been a condition of money from birth and will be until death, and within this realization hate life to a degree, and so to hide from all that exist here as the creation of god/money I lose myself through alcohol, instead of standing up forgiving myself for what I have accepted and allowed, to change myself to stand one and equal to all that is here within understanding and to be the change that is best for all as a living example, and till all examples as self-responsible humans come together as self-directed humans, can we stand as individuals equal and one to move and bring forth a world that support all life, where alcohol as Rotten fruit will not exist, because there will be no more rotten people Possible, as the earth as the garden for life, shall not be able to bear rotten fruit to make rotten drinks to rot the soul of any child or man or women.