I think I understand what you mean. I agree, it is very difficult. However, planning can be replaced by goals. It's great if these goals are for a short time. And it's great if something is out of control to have a backup option and arm yourself with positive thinking. If something is bad, then stop for a minute. Think about what this situation has given you, what opportunities you can use today if you have failed.
Remember that all our fears, failures only in our heads. Our whole life is dictated by our philosophy and all our mistakes too. If you set the correct and positive vector of thinking, then life will certainly change for the better.☺️
I will cheer for you! You will succeed! Hugging you))