In a Rut
For a while now, I feel like I’ve been stuck in a rut and only wanting to stay in bed, eat junk and kill my braincells by watching Youtube and Netflix.
In theory, I have a lot of interests and I like to take long walks with my camera, do handcrafts, read, take self portraits and do research about the things I want to learn more about, BUT I haven’t been feeling up to any of it. I just kill time and avoid life basically. On most days I don’t leave the house or dress up to anything more than the first pair of sweats that are laying next to my bed, and this coming from a person who loves clothing and fashion.
I know I feel a lot better if I even do one of the above things that usually brings joy to me, but it has been feeling increasingly hard to start anything, or if I do start, I’m still inside my head stressing about things and stuff. Yesterday was the first time in a month or so that I went to a photo walk in the nature, and the last time I took self portraits was over two weeks ago, I’m really slacking. I did finish a pair of mittens the day before yesterday but even that was a bit MEH.
The picture here is of me just leaving for my photo walk yesterday, the spark in my eyes felt fake but I did feel a bit better after I got into the nature. Not like omg life is amazing and I’m so glad to be alive, but just okay, this is alright.
I’m not gonna say I’m depressed because I think that is a serious condition which is soooo in style right now, everyone going to therapy like it’s a new hobby. I’m just in a bit of a rut and dealing with exsistential chrisis, no biggie.
I guess I should figure out what I want to be when I grow up, and then take some steps towards that, what ever it is. Isn’t this something one should worry about in their early 20’s, not late 20’s? Follow this blog to see if I ever figure out anything other than what colour to paint my nails each week. I have four choices at that, it’s pretty easy, I wish everything was as simple.
The world is very complicated, full of complex people all competing for things, if your not careful the colour will fade from the light. Just remember your a unique person who deserves to be happy, if that doesn't work get high and watch Anime haha.
We took our first walk yesterday before dinner- it felt so good to enjoy the stroll. Now that winter is ending (hard to believe since we woke up to some snow on the ground this morning) I can't wait to get out in the garden and greenhouses.
I've been the same way- feeling out of sorts lately but I know what caused it. I just make every day a new one and pledge to myself to overcome what is hindering my life.
Good luck getting out of your funk!
Man, I feel you. I don't even know what to say to that - on the one hand there's the "don't beat yourself up about it" and give yourself time and all that, but then Idk...does that really help?
'Cause I have a feeling that time can easily become too much time and that you might only allow it to get worse. So maybe you shouldn't just let it fly and do something about it.
I really don't know, but I'll be following. I'm in a similar mood myself. A lot of things to figure out and it's so convenient avoiding them isn't it?
Glad you're not biting into the whole depression thing. Everyone's fucking depressed these days, it's become a fad.
And remember the old 'don't grow up, it's a trap' thing ;)
Why has nobody stated the obvious? Suppose I'll have to do it then...
"I'd like to be stuck in your rut"
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Actually, this just sounds like Life @eveuncovered as we all just feel a bit of 'meh' overall. Before the internet, where we are always meant to be 'on' and to present our idealized self to strangers we'll never meet, people felt this way. And even before that, with TV as the focus, this was a normal thing as well, as the box also gave us 'examples' of what LIFE is supposed to be, only problem there was all problems arose, were exciting and were fixed in 30-60 minutes.
And before TV the Movie and radio aided us into what we thought LIFE is, not as servelely but surely on that path.
Really, days are simply a construct of our need to organize life into a pattern. The 'need' to fill each 'day' with a certain number of well achieved goals kind of sets us up to feel bad sometimes, but really just being and doing and even just feeling sort of bleh is part of just being a living being.
Sometimes the MEH bits of life can be quite good when we look at the overall picture of living whilst in the midst of it. Now, sit back do nothing and dream about buying a 5th nail colour ;)
This is spot on. I think the medical community and its obsession with depression is making us afraid of our own minds. It is totally normal to go through spells of not feeling like yourself. That is part of growth.
I think that idk shit about life or what I'm doing struggle happens end of 20s, early 30s. Makes perfect sense because there is a big shift in understanding of life between 20 and 30. It hit me last year, and I think I am just starting to crawl out of it.
Am I late for the pity party? I hope not, cause I have drugs and overtly sexist opinions that I guess you already know...
I know I know, but give it to me anyways! I like a bit of spanking.
Im with you all the way ive been feeling the same way for the past 6 months and have been dragging myself just to make it through the day and I totally understand how you feel I hope we snap out of this runt soon!
You make sure you go out into nature every day even if you didn't feel like it. It's an proven fact that going on nature walks will lift the mood. There is so much to observe out there. There's clean fresh air and you get exercise.
How lucky are we in Finland that no matter where we are, we always have clean nature air close to us!?
The perks of having a low population density. You must have visited Helsinki dozens of times and are probably familiar with all the famous sights. I can recommend exploring the seashores in the city or the islands accessible by public transportation nearby.
@eveuncovered, Currently in these times people are feeling the Stressed essence and staying in their heads and falling for the overthinking effect. And to stop this Overthinking we have to move towards our passionate work specially as you said, long walk can give the refreshing essence.
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