I am Depressesed,Sad and I Feel Lost "My Grand Uncle Passed Away"

Recently with the passing of my grand uncle I have been sad that is why I have taken a massive break from my witness project and steemit as a whole. I have not been able to focus on my courses and overall I feel lost I have been sad and it feels horrible. I have loved my uncle and i did not meet him much but he was a cool guy and he always loved us. I just sucks he passed away and i am mad at myself that I did not build a stronger relationship with him. I am so mad and sad and I feel very unhappy with myself and it all my fault. I should have been there for him. He died 1 month ago and I feel wrong talking about it but I have to get it of my chest. I should have been there

Final words: 

Please don't make the mistake I made please become closer with your family and show them love because when it too late its over. I am sorry i have not continued my witness project idea updates but I lost him and it sucks. I will be doing sou searching and I will be going to church more and getting closer to God. Rest in peace Great Uncle. And Great uncle if you are hearing this from my heart I want to say I love you and I am sorry I was not there for you. I hope you learn a lesson from what I am telling you, please become closer with your family members don't make the mistake I did.