Great willpower I know it is so very difficult. My oldest daughter suffered with addiction during the younger part of her life. She told me the slogan One day at a time really helped her. She didn't think of stop drinking for a month or a year etc she focused on getting throughjust that one day which lead to two day and so on and so force. Twenty years later she is still just doing one day at a time and has been clean and sober for 20 years. Stay strong one step at a time.