Hi, I read your very long post and I can see that you are an aspiring writer and artist. On Busy.org, I'm "plankton", as in, tiny sea animal. I've been on here for more than a year. I have felt as you have once or twice. But I always keep this in mind:

Write for free until someone pays you. --- Mark Twain

I also write without expectation of reward. The reward is in the writing. The upvote is just a bonus.

Steemit requires a consistent long term commitment to learning, reading and creating. Read English articles to learn better grammar and punctuation, too. If it reads better, you will get more upvotes.

Write on.