I love being a father and would feel guilty if I did not participate in his upbringing as much as possible. Sure I have doubts as to how well I am doing, the negative side of my mind calls me a failure but that's my own self-esteem babbling. Still, I look back on how I spent the last twenty years of my life and I can not help but think that I want my son to turn out nothing like me. because I want him to live his life for himself, how he wants to live it. not constantly give in to and cater to the whim of everybody else.

well..... that went off topic a bit.... or perhaps its a start to a blog post.