Mondays - Diaries of a Suicidal Teen.

Hello Guys,

Today was a really hard day for me.
All I could think about was how I was going to commit suicide.
My favourite way is cutting, I think...
I mean one little cut...
...And than it's over...
The mess will be easy to clean...right?
I thought about jumping off a rope.
But that won't be nice for the person who will find me.
At least there won't be a mess.

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I need to write a suicide note.
Or a letter or something.
I want to be honest but I can't...
That will fuck everyones live up real bad.
I will be gone so I don't really care.
It is there fault I'm gone.
So maybe they deserve it?

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What will happen after my heart stops beating?
Will I go to hell or heaven?
What will happen after my heart stops beating?

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Nobody knows me.

Nobody knows about my problems.

Nobody cares.

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Why would I tell anyone I have problems if they have problems off their own?
What is it they can do?
Can they stop my mind for working 24/7 and not letting me sleep every night?
What is it they can do that I can't?

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Tonight will be hard, tomorrow even harder.
Killing myself is easier than to wake up tomorrow...
...I think?

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Everyone gets tired of me at some point.
Then eventually they'll leave, they all do.

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I want to learn to draw.

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Have a blessed perfect life!
Your dear, CryptoGenic