To update, I've had some more developments and also found an amazing book called The Body Keeps the Score.

I'm working my way through it and blown away by how much of my difficulty in life is described in his PTSD patients. I'm hoping it really helps me get back into my body, which is the promise, I just need to get through a few another hundred pages to get to what he says to do about it!

I understand this is a difficult topic for people to find an audience over, or to be brave enough to speak up if they resonate, but if you read the post and you care, I'll be trying to continue to update for you silent witnesses.