Isn't life beautiful? Not everything that happens in your life, but life itself. I am glad you posted this. Five years ago, I took my pistol from my closet, left the house. Got to the end of my driveway, and my phone rang. My son who I had not spoken to in a year and a half. He said, "I was getting in the shower with my girlfriend, and something told me I needed to tell you something." He continued, "I need a father, and you are not being a father to me, I want you to promise me right now that you will be a father to me." I said, "I promise." He said, "I am gonna come spend some time with you in three days." I said, "Ok, I will see you then." I put the pistol back in my closet, and I began being a father to my son. I now have the most beautiful life. I have three more children all under six years of age. I am forty five. Unlike you, I was the sole reason for how my life almost ended. I am no longer that person and I wake up smiling and go to bed smiling. My five year old son is actually downstairs now singing loudly. If anyone believes they deserve bad treatment, or think suicide is the answer. I say, "Please, talk to your family, tell them your true feelings." Don't miss out on such a beautiful life. It really is beautiful. You just have to start looking for it. And, this young woman is proof that any life can be beautiful. Thank you for sharing this story. Your courage is awesome. I have to say, "You were meant to be right here, right now."