Akiyoshi, I appreciate you reading my post. As you know I try to be a very grounded and spiritual person but life sometimes throws each of us many challenges. My goal is to understand myself and find my true life's purpose. As I get older, I am able to look back and reflect on all the ups and downs of life. Now it is my time to understand what I have learned. With understanding and knowledge comes self acceptance. Your kindness taking the time to read my second post has deeply touched me. Thank-you Akiyoshi!