If you could go back in time, just one chance... What would you change?
I watched a Chinese movie today. This grandmother went back in time and did all that she wanted to do when she was younger. She had a very tough life. Sacrificed a lot for her son, her husband died while he was barely one. She mended shoes, did odd jobs and eventually her son became a professor and didn't want her around anymore. Well, she got this chance somehow to become young again and became a singer. That's what she wanted most when she was younger. But she decided to go back to being old again because she loved her son and her grandson was in danger. I didn't get the name of the movie because I started in the middle. It was very intriguing nevertheless and it got me thinking. If I could go back in time, what would I do differently? Would I still choose the same path, would I love the same people, do the things I never had the chance to do, how would it feel like?
Personally, I don't think I would change much. I'd have my son over again, he's the best thing that happened to me. I don't think I would attend the same university, but if I didn't, how else would I have my son? I probably would not meet his father. I know i would have spoken out against my abusers, probably put them in jail. I wouldn't have dared to use Chemical based products on my skin, that I know for sure. I would be a Naturalista!! I know that. I would have not skipped so many classes, lol. I would have been a little more braver and worked a lot more on my self esteem. I also would love to feel some things twice. My first kiss, my first date, the first time I saw my son, my first day in school. And oh, the first time I saw my mother so proud of me for being among the top students in class. Amazing feeling!
But really, I would not change anything. My mistakes, my life was for a reason. Everything that happened was for a reason and like Sinatra I bit all that I could chew and spat it out when it became too much. It was worthwhile. I can proudly say I have no regrets. I lived a life full of strength, resilience and love. I've loved through it all!
What about you? Would you change anything? If you had one chance, Just ONE.....