The Naked Civil Servant

in #lgbt7 years ago

The first time I saw the movie “The Naked Civil Servant”, a film version of Quentin Crisp’s life was in the early 1980’s.

Forever a lover of off beat movies and the unusual theatrics my friends and I would gather at small movie theaters to watch foreign movies or new releases. Most would never make it to mainstream cinema. Bored by the formula movies Hollywood produced I welcomed a more worldly perspective on acting and cinematography.

To say that I was shocked by Quentin Crisp in “The Naked Civil Servant” would be an understatement. In fact I was horrified! The extent of my knowledge of homosexuality was so limited at the time. Looking back on it now he was clearly one of the bravest men in England and beyond.

As a child he didn’t understand why he was so different from the other children. Dressing up in his mother’s attire and posing in front of a large mirror. Later as he grew to know himself as a young man he was rejected by his family and most of society for his overtly feminine appearance.

He was a very effeminate man who made no pretense about being anything but himself. This didn’t go over very well with most men. Still he held his head high knowing that he would never be anything like those big burly men who physically attacked him beating him up for his appearance. The cruelty of humans because they fear what they don’t understand is immeasurable.

At some point he met other men of like mind who went to clubs dressed in even more feminine attire daring to embellish their looks with make-up and jewelry. Surprisingly, more than one man was attracted to him and he endured several long term relationships with men who would welcome bedding him, but were too embarrassed to be seen with Quentin publicly. He would not be shamed into being the man pushed back into the closet.

Fiercely independent, Quentin would have his occasional trist, always looking for his tall dark and handsome man that never appeared.

How did he support himself? He had no skills and no inheritance leaving him to his own creativity. Though his body was more like a pasty underdeveloped teenage boy, he found steady work as a nude model in an artists college. He was able to make enough money to maintain his lifestyle and entertain friends.

Arrested for petty crimes cooked up by the police. Quentin was no stranger to the dangers of society. Bravely he went on to become a hero to many young people were also homosexual. He unknowingly paved the way for all those that came after him.

At some point he decided to enter the theatre. Years later I ran across a flier announcing he was hosting a staged monologue at a small venue where he would answer questions from the audience. I couldn’t resist the temptation to see this courageous character so I parked myself in a front row seat to be as close to him as possible.

In reality it wasn’t much of a question and answer type of performance , but more of a soliloquy about his life. He was a fascinating person and I was in awe of his ability to perform and just be himself. He made no apologies for his appearance or his lifestyle.

Even into his late seventies he approached his audience with dignity and pride never regretting his choices in life. In fact he was true to himself walking with integrity never betraying who he was or how he lived something few people today can claim.

Denis Charles Pratt aka Quentin Crisp
25 December 1908 to 21 November 1999


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Quentin Crisp during a Q&A session 1996, Ross Lewis

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Striving to be who we are is one of the hardest things in any society. I think most give up some truth within themselves as survival tactic. So sad back in the day. Glad that persons of today are accepted easier than in the past to be who they are no matter what gender they were born. Love to you for such an insightful piece. Love

So glad you were brave enough to leave a comment. I appreciate it. It is admirable that someone would not give in to societies pressures and just live a life of either lies or become a hermit. Many people wear a mask all of their lives. Love to you both. 🐓🐓

I have worn a few masks myself. That is until I figured out that if society does not like me as a true me then it is society that has the issues, not me. Be yourself living your own life, not what others think is best for you. I can live happy in my soul as long as I am true to myself. My mouth can get me into trouble every once in a while. Love to you.

And wow!!!!! One of my most favorite pieces you have written friend! (well the gazette is my #1 but I am just biased cuz I love chickens lol)
Truly enjoyed reading this. <3

Thank you for taking the time to read my story. Who today can say they stuck to their true values and didn’t waver now and then. Thanks friend❣️🐓

I always find it so inspiring finding people that are living so in line with who they truly are! Thanks for sharing this story!

Thank you for your comment. I appreciate you taking the time to read Quentin’s story. Interesting how life shaped him and the he shaped life. 🐓🐓

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