A Letter to God

There are many ways on how will I communicate with You. It can be through prayers or by looking and talking to the sky. In any way, I know that you will listen and guide us in every way. Witness every thought I am going to reveal as I write You this letter.

It all started when You decided to give a mission to a child once she gets born. Her mother then gives birth to a blissful daughter. Little did they know, the daughter grew up full of sadness. She was a believer. She had the strongest faith no one couldn’t imagine. She was proud with who created her. There was this day that all her beliefs, faith and proudness vanished. Demons conspired her. Hell was pulling her inside. She cried every night under her sheets with her tears refraining to fall, trying not to be heard by her loud sobs. She cried at the bathroom bringing with her a blade contemplating in either to live or to surrender. She was seen in all smiles to the public. She was giving laughter to anyone as she often reminds herself that people around her shouldn’t be treated the way she was. She was being optimistic that serves as an encouragement to people who feels down, even when she can’t be positive for herself. No one noticed. No one knew. Behind those smile is her sorrow. Behind those laughter is her tears. Behind that encouragement is her lost of faith. It seems that no one guided this blissful daughter. I feel pity for the girl. She was depressed. She had multiple of cuts on her skin. She felt alone. She planned on ending her life. She only wanted a hug. Yet she was too miserable, she didn’t had the chance of receiving it. Are you too proud that you wrote this pitiful story for the blissful daughter, God? Do you feel happy watching her from above suffer all these madness? If there’s a God, why would He write a life full of misery? Why are there people who are still suffering even though You said that You love us and we are Your children? Where is your power and glory? What do you do with the faith that you receive from Your children? She had this mindset. These were her thoughts for, she was always all alone. But then, you know, God will always find a solution to every problem. What He did? He sent angels to guide the misguided blissful daughter. He sent those angels to make her feel that she wasn’t alone in this tough battle of life. Those angels made her realize how precious it is to continue living life, so as she. Those angles gave her a hug; the thing she wanted the most was given. God didn’t gave up on her. She gave up God. The blissful daughter says her deepest apologies. Admitting and repentant with all her faults. She know that an apology won’t cost enough to be forgiven. She can’t talk with Him, but she is lucky that she was given a second chance to believe in faith, to believe in Him. Her mission isn’t yet fulfilled and God made her know that all the misery, sorrow, pain, suffering, grief were all part of the challenges. Hurdles that we need to pass through to make us a a stronger and braver person. If only, visiting the heaven and thanking Him personally is allowed, she would probably risk her life doing that. Praying is a way to thank him. But then again, life is too precious to be wasted. Yes, you heard it. The blissful daughter appreciates life. Appreciates sadness and happiness. Appreciates the faith that was given back to her. Genuinely appreciates Him. With the huge effect of changes to the one who wrote this, thank you God. I love you, and I will always do. -from the blissful daughter