I hear you. I think I might feel that way when I'm better suited to approach them. For me there is just so much pain when it comes to them and not so much that I'm busy or caught up with what's going on in my world. I'd love to reconnect but I can't change the morals and values of others and honestly am fearful of subjecting my children to the pain and anguish my parents and siblings put me me through. My kids were very young when we disconnected from my side of family because of something one of their cousins did to them. Thankfully at this point memories have faded but I know for my oldest who did have a relationship with them for the first 5 years of his life, it's effected him negatively. I'm not sure I want to risk putting him through that again. Time will tell I suppose!