Late Night Thoughts

There are so many bad decisions that happens when your 17 and saying no to them is hard. It's hard to walk away from people who are bad influences. I believe everyone is good and I try to look past and see that in everyone, but sometimes people don't do good things and you can't change that... no matter how hard you try you can't change how someone is and it's sad. I went through rough times last year when I met this guy and all I really liked about him was his looks..(which is something I messed up on, but its the truth) he was into bad things that I went along with cause then I didn't know how to say no then... I didn't know how to deal with situations like this.. I hate lying to my parents every night, telling them I was with a friend and yet I was with him cause if I wasn't with him he'd get mad at me and I thought that was how every girl is treated, but no that's not the case and if he didn't leave me I'd still be with him. Today I know how I should be treated, but yet I still go for the wrong guys and think it's ok.. and that I've been hurt enough it won't hurt anymore.. but what hurts the most is that I can't even cry when something hurts cause I am used to that. I may mess up a couple times and I may not make the best decisions 24/7, but I am learning and I know that I am a lot more stronger than I was a year ago and I know that I can make my life how I want it to be. (: