PAST LIFE EXPERIENCE.(SWC)

Hello my fellow steemian,
This is my own past life story for the supernatural contenst organised by my mentor @jerrybanfield. It is a real life story of my past life in school and i believe you will learn something from it.

I had a crush on a boy who was also a good friend of mine. We shared desk for almost 3 years in school.
I proposed to him when I was 16. He straight away rejected my proposal. When I asked him why, he gave me reason that as he was a Christian by religion and I was Muslim, it could result in religious tension if anyone came to know about this. After that he stopped talking to me and changed his location as well. I felt really bad. Probably that was the first time in my life when I realized that I am a Muslim and I am different from majority population here.

Life took its circle and one christian guy proposed me when I was in my 3rd year of graduation. My age was 21 years then. It reminded me of Ram, the other guy I proposed during school. I took a day and decided that I will not reject John on the basis of religion and I said yes to him. On the same day he took me to his hostel room and started kissing and hugging me. That was really odd, I asked him to stop but he told me that I just said yes to him. I was really shocked and surprised as this was my first affair, I was thinking that did yes means all these things.. meanwhile he continued to play with me.

I collected courage and pushed him aside.. I dont know what happened to him, he slapped me hard and forced to his bed. He raped me twice before I left his room. I was so shocked and depressed that I slept without even having dinner. It was bleeding and so much pain almost unbearable. Next day he came to me asking whether I told about yesterday to someone or not. When I said no, his tone got changed. He asked me to come again with him but I refused. 3rd day he sent a muslim guy Junaid, who told that they have clicked my pics without clothes when John was raping me. He blackmailed me and told me that if I didnt come with him he will circulate all these images in our community and all respect of mine and my family will be ruined. I got feared and went with him.

He took me to John hostel’s room where John was already there. On that day both of them raped me. Next day, Junaid took me to some other place and he told me that now John will not disturb me, but I have to cooperate with him otherwise he will tell to everyone about my rape. He raped me there. And that continued for almost 6 months. He used to rape me daily sometimes twice a day before classes and after the college. And whenever I used to beg him and ask him to leave me, he used to say that if he dont fuck me I will go to other guys. At least I am getting fucked by same community guy. By listening these kind of words I used to feel like a whore.

That time was really depressing, I lost all my confidence and faith in god as well. I was not finding the way to come out of this. I decided to commit suicide. I thought of meeting my family last time before committing the suicide.

On that day, when I was returning from the college, I saw Ram in my bus.
Co-incidentally Ram also recognized me and came to me. He told me that he was also studying in other college near by and he was a President of student union in his college. He joined some hindu ideology Political Party as well. I dont know what triggered him but he asked me to go for a coffee with him as we met after long time (that incident). I was already depressed and disturbed, I dont know why, but I was not able to say him no. He took me to a near by restaurant and ordered Pav bhaji and 2 coffees. He sensed that something was wrong and asked me that if I was comfortable in sitting with him.

He apologized for his behavior in school. He said that he should not have broke the friendship but as he was also young he didnt know how to handle that. That’s why he just stopped talking to me. His confession broke me, I dont know what happened to me and I narrated all to him whatever was happening with me since last 6 months. And also told him that please dont tell this to anyone as anyways I will be committing suicide tonight. By listening all these things he got tensed. He consoled me and took all information about Junaid. He asked me not loose patience and think about my family. I was so depressed that nothing was going through my ears. But I dont know why, by saying all these things to him, I dropped the idea of committing suicide atleast on that day. On next morning, Ram called at my home and asked me to come to an apartment near to his college. By listening his sentences, I lost my control again. As I lost faith in male fratainity, I got feared. All bad thoughts started coming in my mind as I was going towards that place. I thought now Ram will rape me may be with his goons. I will become complete labeled whore now. But when I reached at that apartment Ram was alone. He took me to one room where one guy was tied with chair bleeding from his nose. That was Junaid. Ram kicked him in front of me and asked me to slap him. I was so feared that I asked Ram to let him go otherwise he will malign me. But Ram gave me confidence that nothing will happen. He told me that he was planning to give him to police. I got some courage and slapped him 4–5 times with my full power. Meanwhile one policeman also came to apartment. I requested Ram not to create scene out of it as it will ruin all my family respect. Ram told me that nothing will happen and he sent me to other room.

Then that policeman and Ram beaten Junaid very badly and threatened him to stay away from me. Ram spent whole day with me and dropped at my home in evening. On that day I felt relaxed. After that Ram used to call at my home on every alternate day to check if Junaid or any other guy is not disturbing me and I was safe or not. He used to do my counseling and gave me confidence. He used to talk to me with full respect even after knowing all whatever happened with me. That gave me confidence that I am not a whore. I am also a normal girl.

He told me that faith didnt matter much but values did. He got all these values from his mother. Respect every girl in same way as you respect your sister. Gradually in 20–25 days he got busy in his things and stopped calling me. Then after 6 months he called me and asked me to meet. When me met he informed me about his masters plan and told me he was shifting to some other state. That was the last time I met him or talked with him. Next year I also get married to a wonderful man.

Ram came like God and saved my life. In just one day he turned all things in my favor and removed all negativity from my surroundings. I always remember Ram’s those words “faith didn't matter much in life but values did”. And I am ensuring to inculcate great values to my kids as Ram's words "FAITH DIDN'T MATTER MUCH IN BUT VALUES DID" kept ringing like a loud bell in my ear everytime.

Thanks for reading.
Authored by @idemayor.