BEING CONSCIOUS OF TIME....

I am currently reading the 14 rules of life by Jordan Peterson, and I recommend that you check it out as well.

Jordan has an apparent and unbiased outlook on life, which I find interestingly refreshing. It doesn't necessarily make one feel good, but his observations are relatively true, and like the old book says, "only the truth will set you free."

Being conscious of time.

For the first time in a long time, I am conscious and particular about every minute/second. My time has become a scarce resource. Time for me has also been a scarce good, but now it is deficient in a different way. Before these past few weeks, I had time in abundance but never felt it was enough. It was merely the case of drifting through time engaged in poor-pleasure-driven activities. I could spend hours in my head contemplating how pressed I was for time and not engage in any productive endeavor.

Things started to change when I began to code. Unlike writing, which took me less creative time, I could exert myself into the process of learning, which I find fulfilling. It has been long since I engaged my mind in such a way.

The other thing that has given my life some form of purpose is my new and hated job. It is less about the job and more about the routine, and the fact that this activity I commit myself to is rewarding in a way. Even though I consider the reward to be subpar, it does help me achieve my much bigger goal. Everything seems to be in sync, and I have reached a certain level of order.

I told my friend the other day that this is the first time in a long time that I am not actively worrying about money. I don't have as much as I used to 5 months ago, but I feel a better sense of security and purpose even with the little I have. This is what Jordan describes as 'order' in his book.

Although I have goals that surpass my financial strength, I do have some semblance of clarity--a timeframe, so to say. There is clarity of purpose amid the uncertainty of life.