Hello Steemit! I have failed numerous times, potentially lost the opportunity of a lifetime and I find it impossible to give up even though logic says I should. NEVER GIVE UP!

Hello people!

Currently I have an unopened email on my phone which is going to decide the rest of life and damn! For the first time of my life I am actually terrified of an email. So I decided to share my frustrations, joys and hope with you all as a way to stall for time and calm my nerves.

In short, I have failed. I have failed so many times in life to find success in my personal life. But yet, I cannot give up. When I finished university some years ago I was filled with hope and vigor that I am going to truly impact and change the world in ways that I could not have imagined. Fast Forward some years on I have made significant progress but the problem is that everybody around me thinks I have failed and that I should give up. My friends say I should give up, my family says I should give up and even random damn stranger say I should give up. But in my mind all of those people do not see the bigger picture! So I kept on trying to make things work!

Now let me explain the email. After all of my work, I managed to convince a very successful and incredibly passionate entrepreneur to take me on and mentor me. He is running a special program that only allows for a limited amount of people to join. The guy has actually been a long term friend for two years and I knew that this would change everything. I had to go through interviews and surpass hundreds of other applicants. Eventually he chose me to become a part of the mentorship.

Let me put this into perspective for you. In all of my life there would be no opportunity that even comes close to this one. Literally nothing. It is like you liking ice cream and you were only ever given a scoop of it at a time. Now, you have the potential to own your whole damn ice cream factory! (Not the best analogy but I hope you get my point). After all of these years of constantly hearing "get a real job" this was it! The only thing I needed to do was pay for the year mentorship. This is where it all went wrong.

I tried almost every conceivable way I could think of but with the short time frame and the amount required I did not make the deadline. I HATE making excuses but damn! It felt like seeing the Moon fall down. It was an event that was not supposed to happen. But I accepted my failure and sent the mentor an email explaining things. I still told him, if there is any other way I can get on this program I would be willing to take it!

The email reply came and it is still unopened. Honestly, the rational thing would be to be realistic and to give up hope and expect the email so just be a polite rejection. But my heart simply cannot succumb to despair. I will keep on hoping and I will have faith. It is crazy but I will still believe.

This post was mainly written to get my nerves out the way and hey, I actually feel better. I guess the key thing that I do want to share with you all is to never give up even if you facing the impossible.

Keep on believing.