Some Insight Into Who I am

My name is Sami, I’m 23, born and raised in San Francisco, CA. I have recently begun the journey of self-discovery and am excited to use steemit to help me. Looking back I have a small amount of envy for the kids who, while growing up, had their parents push them in a certain direction, helping to create skills for them which has benefitted them as they've gotten older. Since graduating college a year ago with a degree that pertains to nothing of relevance to my interests and a realization that I possess very minimal skills, I am now beginning my quest to figure out what I am passionate about and the kind of person I want to become…

I am learning what are phases in my life and what is truly a part of me. I went through a long phase during my late teens of cycling in and out of an abusive relationship, we bonded over making fast money together and spending it foolishly. After finally exiting that (which was a long drawn out process) I started to reconnect more with my roots and realized the toxicity of the flashy, social media driven, life I had succumbed to. Originally I wanted to move to LA post-grad, and pursue a career in agency, talent agency specifically. With the network and connections to do so it seemed like a feasible option until I realized every time I went to LA and indulged in the life of excess I ended up feeling physically ill. Driving back up to San Francisco just a few weeks before my college graduation in June 2017 I realized I was losing myself and made a rash decision.

Within the next few weeks I had applied and accepted a job in Yosemite National Forest where I would work in a kitchen for the summer living a life of recluse. The sentimental value that Yosemite holds for me is significant, and I hadn’t been there since my father died, making my return extremely profound. This past summer was humbling, immersed in the sequoias I spent my days mopping floors and scrubbing dishes with no access to internet or service. I started to read again, something I forgot how much I enjoyed. I exercised every day and sunbathed by the lake. I spent my time off backpacking and climbing throughout the park. I started my journey.

As the season ended I thought about what my next move was going to be. Do I return to San Francisco, a bubble of tech innovation and gentrification, where I would be forced to enter the rat race? Do I continue my education, pursuing a masters or law degree? I was confused. I still am. Upon graduation most people face a sort of invisible pressure, to take the next steps into adulthood and conform to this societal norm of getting a nice job, saving money, having a family, buying a house. To take a step in that direction scared the shit out of me and frankly still does. Entering this conventional route seemed like it would impede my road to self-realization. My mental state had just started to become healthy, what could I do to give myself even more clarity?

I used the money I made that summer and I bought a ticket to South America. Peru to be exact, where I spent the first month there living with a Peruvian family. I realized my first big goal was to learn Spanish.

What Will I Post About?

I will talk about my experience and travels that evolved after I touched down in Cusco early November. As well, I am interested in travel, health & well being, fitness, adventure, rock climbing, yoga, cryptocurrency, spirituality & personal development. Therefore you can expect my posts to fall somewhere in this realm...as well I will be posting on DTube shortly.

Thanks for reading and looking forward to meeting some awesome people!

Instagram: @sfcsami