I hope you can overcome you depression and anxiety - honestly I see diet, exercise and self hypnosis as the cures.
I love martial arts and it can really change the mind when the body gets the lead out. Brazilian jiu jitsu is awesome and will let you connect with people as well.
Detoxing on a fruit diet can also help.
What you seem to already realize - pills will NOT help.
Welcome to the Steem World!
I have recently made an orientation video that will help you in your journey here - and will hopefully answer all the questions that took me months to figure out.

I will also use the tag : @originalworks for this post, this will summon a robot that, if you wrote this original article, will give you an additional upvote. :)