Forgetting Yourself and Putting Others As Your First Priority - Is It Worth Your Time and Efforts?

Right in the middle of the night, here I was thinking if all my efforts were not wasted, there is so much responsibilities as it seems, unlike other people who only think of themselves and what to eat and wear. My daily routine was to think of how I can pay the bills (not for myself, but for other people) it is so hard to think that I am living on earth and working for others.

I wish there is a way to escape but then you cannot just forsake those people you are helping especially when they matter to you that much! I wanna think that this is my purpose, this is my life, to avoid stress and to keep going in life. I don't wanna think about how much I was losing everything and how much I have forgotten myself and my own happiness, I just want to live and breath even it is not for myself but for others.

I wanna look on the brighter side of the world, want attain positive energy and all that, I wanna think that I'm human and not a robot. And of course because I am not a robot, I do get tired, I do complain at times and scream too loud but something that only myself could hear.

Glad to have found this site, now I have a better place to express my feelings and everything inside that matters. I don't know how else can I better introduce myself in a way that people would like. But here I am breathing and kicking and fighting life over death.

Thank you so much for your time and consideration, glad to meet you