Haha, thats a nice, profound but still funny post. welcome on steemit. I wish you all the strength and joy recreating your life and following doing the things that bring you joy. It make sme very happy to hear that you take you choose to do what you like instead of what others expect. Approval never satisfies in the long term. And there will be so many people that will enjoy your stories and the new you! Because if we are happy with ourselves, we radiate a light can affects other people too. Go for it!