You have so much to offer the world than that girl! Take it from someone who has done what you have and found my way back. You deserve to feel sexy without having to take your clothes off. You deserve to have people compliment your on something other than you boobs. You can write really well, so take that and run as far as you can with it. Write a story, do some research or write a poem. Do whatever it is that you are passionate about, whatever it is that makes you happy. You deserve that too