@lixler . Man, it was a bit tough reading the post but i promise you it will be all better. You're young and you have your life ahead of you. Trust and know that there is Someone out there looking out for you. You may not realize it yet but it is. I know this is coming from a stranger halfway around the world but hey, that's what's Steemit is for. Welcome. Some tips: learn to markup your post (but I honestly liked reading it the way it is.. like a diary of sorts.)

Some images would be nice too. Anyway.. thanks for posting. Will be following you.