Aescholer, You have more friends and more love shining down on you than you could ever know. Some old some new and many you haven't even met. Your Steemit family will be a huge force in your transformation. And I'd love to help how ever possible. Glad you got that off your chest. Let it go and take time to heal. Never easy though easy to say...but it will pass. And being a big believer of everything happening for a reason... I hope you let the possibility of this sycronicity comfort you. Hope to work with you in the future.