HolyGucamoly! You can do it! Change your live 180degrees! All I can tell you is to mmmmm oohmmMeditate, do soulsearching, relax and enjoy every single inhale and exhale you do. Doctors estimates are often dogmatic. Each person is different. There is an intetesting alternative healing methold called "new germanic medicine". I find that interesting, because it sees cancer not as a sickness, but as already a healing stage from a trauma that happend before the cancer manifests. But I don't want to add yet another advice. I can imagin you have lots of people bombarding you with lovly advises how to overcome such a difficult situation. Again. All the best and that you heal well.