Locked in a world of the mind

I was approved a couple weeks ago, but just now am working on getting this typed. I would like to start writing what's on my mind and see if it is anything people are interested in. I will be writing about things that happen in my life and views on the world.

Right now I play too much WoW. I would like to stop and actually do more, but I have found myself in a rut. I need to find people to help me get out more and workout. I need to start doing the Manitou Incline more. So, if anyone is in the Colorado Springs area and wants a workout/hiking/biking partner then let me know.

I am also a nudist and try to go to resorts or hot springs as much as I can. It kinda sucks going alone because I am not great at talking and meeting new people. The friends I have right now do not agree with nudist. They think it is more than it really is.

It is good to be able to enjoy true freedom.

I have done some college toward architecture, but for now I have been taking a break. Have lost my motivation to continue. I would like to eventually design innovative and interesting buildings. One of the projects that I want to work on is homes for foster kids. The ones waiting to be adopted. I could be wrong, but I'm not sure that the current foster homes really makes kids feel that they are wanted or are really geared toward feelings of loneliness and depression. I would like to design a place that focuses on physical health by way of street calisthenics. Lots of pullups and body weight exercises. Teach kids to be able to control their own bodies and find peace within themselves. Maybe even some meditation rooms or something too. Make sure all activities are able to challenge the mind of many different mind sets, because not everyone is the same.

I have many other ideas in my mind that I would like to get out and work on, I just need the right help. It wouldn't hurt to be able to find someone to spend my life with to help me have a real life. Yes I do have some depression, but who doesn't have problems. Most people aren't willing to admit their problems. They blame everything on someone else. Most of my problems come from being alone. I would like to find more people to interact with and do things with. It's just hard for me to do alone. I also have ideas for books to write, I just haven't quite gotten too far with them.

I am looking for someone that is in shape, skinny, or petite. It wouldn't hurt for us to like a lot of the same things, but we don't have to like all of the same things. I have a decent metabolism, so I usually don't have to work out much to not get fat, but I would like to eat better and workout more myself. It would be great to find someone that can understand me and give me a chance to actually get to know me instead of judge at first sight. I am looking for a relationship like Deadpool has with his girlfriend in the first movie. Yes, the sex would be great, but I am actually referring more to their emotional connection. I know there are girls out there that fit my type, I just don't know where to find them. I do like to watch movies, hike, workout, ice skate, bike. I would like to have my own kids someday and teach them to be better than I am. I wouldn't want them to have the same problems that I do.

I will be honest and dedicate to the person that I date. Since I am not good about talking to other people that well, there is a very low chance that I could ever cheat. Most girls go for a guy that has a lot of confidence and talks to them with ease, but shouldn't they be more concerned with that because that guy can also talk to other girls with ease too. I guess I am saying that I would be a safe bet. I am, however, looking for 2 females to share my life with if it is able to work out. Maybe I am searching for too much. I would really just like to have someone that can stick by my side.

I am searching for a purpose in life. A reason to live. An actual reason for why we exist. I may not find it, but it would help if I wasn't alone while I still do exist. I am Atheist, but I don't shove it down anyone's throat. I don't mind dating or hanging out with anyone that does have a religion, but they just can't expect me to convert.

I guess I don't really have much else for now. If you follow me then you shall be able to read some of the things that trouble my mind.