what is the meaning of life? to live. what is my purpose in the universe? to live my life. the roles you fill, are not you. they are what you've done, what you're doing, and what you will do. they are not who or what you are. i keep running across these posts today about people "throwing in the towel". if anyone can't find something to do they are not trying or looking in the right place. just before this i was replying to a post about someone with a suicide in the family. if you want some more thoughts, please, take a look. all of this is after my morning post about my intent to live to be 35000. i'm not even close to joking. this world is so amazing, so infinite, i don't know how anyone would want to stop. please, get some more D3, do a 21 day bone broth to rebalance your hormones, something, just please go no farther down this road. i'm doing this on steemit to get downtime from research on curing aging, seriously. i see way too many victims of the programs in society that teach us life is suffering, long life is torture, and death is inevitable and necessary. if i let it get to me i would be heartsick over this. i realize, though, that i can't make others decisions. the point to living is to live. millions of years of genetic change has led to you. why throw it away, because you feel like it's not what you should have? if you are in the northern hemisphere, winter is coming. get as much natural vitamin D3 as you can, or these feelings will only get worse. searching for deeper meaning, and purpose and realism are not opposites. the purpose is simply what you create. it is no more complicated than that. there is no grand design but if there were, how could you doubt that you are an integral part. it works either way. i use my self defined purpose to fuel my realism. about 5 years ago i needed a cure for cancer. so i did my research, did what needed to be done. i'm alive today because of it. everything we need to make meaning in this life is all around us.all we need do is look. i didn't mean to go off. your choices are yours. i wish you well and good luck.